another week another dollar

It's that time again for a blog update. I'm happy to report nothing too tragic is happening. I had a bit of money woe at the start of the year (Happy New Year btw, cause it's still sorta new enough for that right?) but things appear to be coming into balance a bit. I'm hoping acknowledgement of that isn't going to jinx matters but only time shall tell.

I FINALLY got registered for extra work after many months of being late and what not. The process of finding/applying to work with them is interesting. I guess we shall see how that goes. One of these weeks when I'm extremely free (lol when the hell is that... ) or perhaps a day where I know I've got nothing planned I'll see how their on call line works and hope for the best.

The foxxy set that I shot weeks ago will not be submitted. I'm a little sad but I understand the reasons for not wanting to submit. I'll just have to find someone else to re-shoot and try to outline EVERYTHING before we shoot now that I have all the information. It kinda sucks cause I don't wear braids that often anymore/they are a time consuming thing to put in so it would've been nice to get this done right away. Good news is that I have other costumes to shoot that I'll have to shoot w/out extensions in so I can focus on those in the coming months/until I have a concrete date for to shoot princess tiana. I'm kinda gonna miss these braids... they look more awesome as time passes but I'd kind like to fully touch my scalp again lol.

Playing a lot of saints row 4 lately, it's different but good. Uh Pump it up playing is.... well going. I feel like I'm hitting a plateau again which is kinda frustrating though I'm going to start dedicating the day out of the week that I do go play to just that and not hardcore lifting before I hit up the arcade. For one it leaves me with no energy to do much else (which is probably amazing for fat burning and the like but not for improving in the game itself) But if I do... decide to lift that day I'll do it afterwards but I think doing that kind of cardio with weights in the same day might be too much for me to handle at the moment. I usually don't have the will power to do much else on that day which isn't good when you work for yourself/when money depends on constant advertising/communication/editing/ ten billion other things I have to do to not be homeless. I'm not complaining, I chose this life and for the most part I'm content... but I do need breaks from time to time so a pump day could be just the ticket for emotional and mental respite.

I want to try to get out of town once every 3 months as well... just to get a bit of a break. I think if I plan it enough in advance I should be able to swing the costs, book some shoots and perhaps plan some fun arcade and touristy stuff while in whatever town I'm in. Texas seems like a likely ticket... san franscico and san diego also look mighty tasty and of course atlanta since there is someone there who I've been wanting to work with since I started modeling but the space between us keeps that from happening.

For now I'm in the heavy budget mode and try not to die stage. Usually this time of the month I start to gain a little momentum toward rent but hopefully some extra work gigs roll in and a few paid things come so that I'll have extra again (and no more crappy doctor visits that have depleted all my emergency funds)

Still have to save up for the dentist as well, I will have braces this year! I'm not excited by it but... it needs to get done so fuck it!

Alright it's time to get ready to cam... I hope you've enjoyed this little update and that life is treating you with awesome and whimsy and the like

XoXo

Britney Siren

^---hopefully the set will be submitted/used for something *shrugs* you can follow the photographer's twitter @JimPollockPhoto

and uh mine @siren_voice

 ^--- you can follow this wonderful editing fella who did a re-edit of this video on twitter
@Phoenix00Knight

A new video for you!

If you'd like to get the full video it and other videos are available on clips4sale and Extra Lunch Money

If you'd like to discuss getting your own personal custom video shoot me an Email
Links are at the end of the video!

I'll write a more formal post when I get the chance. Also don't forget to check out the sidebar for some personal stuff I'm selling on ebay to cover moving expenses and to free up space. Otherwise it'll be all sad and sit in storage not being used or possibly damaged by careless miscreants.

I hope this weekend is treating you all well.

Mucho love!

Britney Siren

funny parody I thought you guys might enjoy

I thought some of you might get a kick out of this! I make a very brief camio... check out my awesome typing/looking off into the distance skills :D

It was really nice seeing it all come together like this. I hope to see more from these guys in the future and maybe (if they thought I did a good enough job of "typing" ) I might be in some other things as well.

So please enjoy and I hope you all go see the movie and have a wonderful weekend

XOXO

Britney Siren

new dance video!

I've been a bit afraid to upload all the dance videos I've made but in a way I'm glad to have these old one's to look back and see if there's any improvement being made. Dancing is one of those things about life that I really enjoy right next to modeling and singing. I can feel lots of life's stresses lifeted away. I feel at peace when I dance...

Though it is a little different when recording oneself than it is being in a club with fancy lights or alone even cause you know for certain no one is watching. It's still a fun thing to keep track of.

I do hope you enjoy the video and I sincerely want to get back into updating on a regular basis. Jeez I looked at my youtube channel and saw that my last video was 4 months ago and I was like woa!! what happened there? :P

I have to get ready to head out and start my birthday weekend of dancing till I drop. Thanks for visiting and watching and hopefully this video isn't too terrible for words. I always seem to find a bunch of things to nit pick at when I watch these lol

XOXO

Britney Siren

A new video has entered the ring!!

Other than that yesterdays "workshop" with MXD went well but wasn't what I expected. For some reason I was expecting it to be similar to regular group shoots with a bunch of things going on at once. This was much slower paced which is cool I guess and no time allotted for one-on-one's either. One tip for anyone thinking of getting into photography with models... do learn to relax and talk to the person you're shooting. If you can't make a bit of small talk and give direction/some positive words here and there to make sure the model knows they're doing the right thing (and also establishing more comfort)... this can make for an awkward shoot especially with a beginning model who doesn't know what she's doing and probably thinks everything she's doing sucks lol Just a suggestion.

I would also say not to say certain things to a person you're meeting for the first time until you've gauged out what's ok and what isn't. Ya never really know what can be offensive to people and not everyone will speak up about it so watch your tongue in professional settings.

To the man who I met last night who reads my blogs... ok me saying "I know no one reads my blogs" it's a lie. I know a few ppl do... I've gotten a few gigs this way and other people have mentioned coming across it. etc... I just want to say that some of the things you said weren't appropriate and leave it at that. One thing I will say that you should never say to any black or ethnic person ever is anything resembling "you speak well for insert random race, almost like a white girl etc." it's offensive as fuck... srsly don't say that shit.  I don't think you will grasp how irritating that is b/c you will never have to put yourself in a minorities position but try to understand. What am I supposed to sound like? Ghetto cause I'm from the ghetto? Just b/c someone is born and raised in it... well let's just say everyone here isn't a cess pool of idiocracy. Most ppl are just trying to get along and leave others alone. A small percentage cause trouble and that's not usually a problem if one knows how to conduct oneself and leaves those people alone.

I just hate stereotyping and backhanded compliments.... and anything pertaining to my personal life (IE: who I'm sleeping with) is no body's business... I'm not seeking advice, support or anything in my personal matters and as such I've stopped writing about them here... don't ask me or hint at anything of the such with me.

And no I don't know what I wrote 2 days ago... I don't go and re-read wth is here... who the hell does that?

End of bitch rant....


What I'm up to so far:

*8/20 -shoot with Papa Vic Photography

*8/22 (unavailable)

*8/25 -Shoot with Moonstix

*8/28-- Joylyn's Birthday Party Event!

As you can see other dates are still available for next week!! Let's book something shall we? (feel free to contact me at the links at the end of this post)

a shot from last week by vintage vista! Can't wait until we officially work together on our blindness shoot!! (and half afraid of rats and snakes and dying... guess we'll see)
 

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Model Mayhem -- Deviant Art -- Twitter -- Tumblr -- Formspring -- Youtube

Since it would seem that I won't be showering for a while...

occupied :-/ I might as well make an entry. Yesterday had a shoot with Beaver Photography which was super duper fun. Even though it got dark and super cold really fast, I had a really good time and I like the end result. His buddy Derek Digital was there for witty banter and did my eye shadow. I'm a bit ashamed to admit that I totally forgot to do my foundation so I hope that doesn't make for more work :( 

I got a real people job that I'm starting today! Hopefully I won't totally suck at it and can move out of this place w/ some random creepy cool person. What this does mean though is that I'll mainly be free during the weekdays for shooting.

I may have booked a shoot for Friday but we seem to be in the planning stages ( hopefully this will be set before I head out for work other wise it'll have to wait until nightfall or early tomorrow morning?)

Any who I'm on Model Mayhem, Deviant Art, You tube, Twitter, Formspring, Tumblr... Feel free to check out my work or inquire about shooting/availability. As far as I know scheduling is done on Thursdays (today I think) so I should know what days I'm free for next week but more thank likely it will be weekdays. If you want to shoot on a weekend and can let me know 2 weeks in advance that can be arranged.

I miss being able to have weird hair's T_T


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First dancing video

So I finally put one up (for my many months, hell probably a year of talking about it) Any constructive criticism would be greatly appreciated. I do apologize that I couldn't get my entire body in the shot and for the crap on the bed lol... Perhaps some other time I can have someone else HOLD THE CAM... or something... I'm also not properly dressed for this kind of music... Why does that matter? Hell I dunno, it's always better when you look cool... or more naked. So sorry for wearing clothing. I don't think they let you put up naked videos on good ol' youtube anyway (unless it's weird Europeans humping the ground and trying to put water in their vagina's.... if I knew the name of the video I'd totally post it but... it was shown to me. If I DO find it though I'll put it up cause it's the most weird crap you'll ever see)

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 As some of you may already know... I had a mis-hap w/ my clothing and thus I don't have much to shoot in, cam in or anything else for that matter. If you'd like to help out with that or in anyway my wishlist is here This would greatly help out w/ shooting and regular daily life in general so if you ever wanted to contribute in some way but didn't know how here's a chance.

As far as camming goes... I'm still not sure what hours I want to do it though in a general sense I'm usually on Myfreecams.com (username: private_siren) 5am - 8am (roughly) on days when I'm insomniac driven. Considering the living situation is... weird at the moment I have to go on early (if I do). I'm going to see how things go over the next few weeks (normal job wise and w/ this) to see what days work best for me. So far I'm pretty consistent w/ Monday's though so I'll mark that down as one. If any of you would like to contribute some items for this you can snag something from the wishlist above or get something snazzy from here (I wanna take more time to add more things, if you see something you think I should add let me know) You also won't be able to catch me on if you're in California for obvious non-creepo privacy factor... sorry. There are ways around this though. Message me for details here

I'm also commissioning custom posed pictures for folks... you can message me at the above email for details.

I'm also booking shoots for this week. As of now I'm free july 6th through 9th. I can book things further in advance than that (for the following week) but I tend to not do that until the end of this week is approaching but consider next week free as well (if ya like). Feel free to contact me on my email, model mayhem, deviant art and even fet life (I'd link to it but my profile is private for users only so if ur origin is here... message me) if you'd like to book something. (Though fet life tends to be the one that gets the most over looked so plz put you'd like to shoot or something in the title so I know for sure that's what you're contacting me about)

I'd also LOVE more questions for youtube! If ya got em send them on whatever respective site of origin you're on and maybe mention that you'd like me to make a video about it. You can also fee free to message me on the link above where it says to message me for details.

Still waiting on pics from last weeks shoot... waiting ever so patiently. And all of a sudden feeling a mighty bit sleepy lol.

Other networks I haven't mentioned yet.... Twitter and Tumblr and formspring

random industrial dancey outing bordom picture... I will not eat your soul I promise... (I sure do put a lot of links in these things. I'm curious how often ppl actually click them though and if I should start writing out the entire URL? oh well lol)

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Sunday... which means...

A NEW VIDEO!! (I apologize for how crappy it is and I'll elaborate a bit more on it's topic. It's pretty early in the morning and I'm only awake now b/c someone woke me up for no reason. I may take a power nap after this actually lol)

So the shoot was w/ Adam Chilson. I saw a few pics straight out of the camera and I'm expecting that they'll be a feast to behold. I thought I'd be more afraid of a few things that I did. (climbing a tire fort thing, shooting fire, holding fire... ) but the fire made me giddy, the fort didn't really scare me at all. There's nothing close to the back heat that comes off back toward you when you're dealing with fire. I can't say that what I hypothesized it being like is close to what it actually is. I got to wear random pieces of leather and cool warrior shit. Since I got there early and the outdoor sets looked better at night I got to shoot inside too... so you have some weird hentai tentacle rape thing to look forward to lol. I'm a little sad that I didn't get to shoot on one of the sets. I really wanted to see it filled with water. I practiced my "stealthy walk" but I guess it wasn't for naught... I'm hoping something will open up again and I could shoot on it before it's torn down  but I'm not counting on it though.

One of the sets might get put on action girls which would be pretty sweet!! I've admired that site from afar (I mean girls with big guns that go boom always equals awesomeness!!) 

I also found out about some event called Wasteland Weekend. I REALLY WANNA GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We'll see what happens though. I might be used in some of the promo material for it (which would be beyond rad) and a chance to get in free in exchange for walking around in costume (which ultimately solves my lack of costume issue) for a few hours. I see this all as a win win!!

Now to hopefully spend a couple of hours of my day playing breath of fire and applying to some gigs... I go onto kill a giant fucking robot thingy which took me an hour to figure out where it really was. Damn dialog in old rpg's is always so atrocious. Granted this isn't nearly as bad as the first Final Fantasy where 99% of the town would say the same line! I am enjoying the game play though and I do hope to actually finish it this time w/out something weird happening (hard drive randomly exploding lol) I also wanna snag some more neo geo shooters and random obscure shit. Before that I'm getting mark of the wolves cause I'd be pretty awesome if I could not suck so badly at it. The top system amuses me.

Which reminds me (sorry for being scatter brained... I haven't been writing as much as I used to lol) I saw King of Fighters XIII which I had no clue existed. IT WAS GORGEOUS!! If I had money yesterday and wasn't so horribly out of practice w/ KOF I would've played and been beaten horridly but it would've looked really good. Everyone I watched play yesterday appeared to be pretty good and have a good grasp of the game already. (unexpected stop at anime expo for some reason. I think that event has lost it's luster for me. Honestly I'm not really a fan of anime though there are a few that I've enjoyed, much of it is weird, annoying in the style of it and re-used shots which I'm guessing are to save money. Rely too much on flashy colors than a decent story... I'd rather watch something that takes place in America and won't have random things lost in translation, giant eyeballs and hair blowing shots.... ok I'll stop my ranting now)

I'm also booking shoots for this week... so contact me HERE or on one of these other snazzy networks... Model Mayhem , Deviant Art, Twitter, Tumblr,

why is this picture here? Someone complained that I don't have pictures on here (though I dunno why they'd need to be here per say... I mean that's what all those snazzy links are for but here's a daily deviation that I thought looked nice... wow I just realized those are giant granny panties.... uh anyway more work by this person HERE



That's enough for now!

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So the net is back on woot woot

I'm still not sure if I'll find myself on all the time (well at least I'll be able to check out castings and job search things in the mornings and evenings. OH and chatty chat opportunities woot!)

I guess I can understand why it was off though even though it was a some what irritating having to lug my comp around. So the vid I was gonna upload Sunday I'm putting up today (joy) If you got anymore questions or random things you'd like me to talk about or explore I'd love to hear them.

Thank you new followers on DA and for all the favs and the continued checking up on my randomness :) Thanks to everyone who continues to correspond w/ me (I like having pen errrm type pals)


I've been playing Breath of Fire and I'm stuck on some search for REMEDY for Nina's father. I'm a little disappointed that I'm stuck so early in the game when I flew through the first 2 dungeons (one while on the bus getting stared at because I had this laptop out and a bunch of cords... oh my little lappy tends to look like it's on life support quite often lol) I could look up a walk-through but I don't wanna do that (even though I've passed this part previously I still wanna re-figure it out. Guess I'm missing something. I might just head back to the castle and see what happens.

I'm wondering about starting a pic of the day type thing.... though I dunno how dedicated I'd want to be to that everyday. Maybe a pic of the week? Shit I dunno It may just be a here's a pic of the day when I feel like it and when the net isn't turned off over petty crap thing? LOL

In general though my mood is pretty good. I'm looking forward to tomorrows shoot w/ Adam Chilson. I'm hoping not to set myself on fire or those that I love but looking at the pics from previous shoots these should be... really super duper pretty/awesome :)

I'm also thinking of taking requests for custom shows/ pics... if you have something in mind send it HERE!!!

I might be available to chat sometime today or tonight, I'm not exactly sure (as usaual) We'll see what the day brings.

ALSO ... Shooting wise. I'm still free from Saturday on through next week (I don't think I should wait for that job to get in touch with me. If something changes I can always let everyone know... FUCK IT!) You can contact me on Model Mayhem or Deviant Art if you'd like to set something up. And for shits and giggles add me on Twitter and Tumblr oh I always forget Formspring.

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An Introduction done in mediocre minor??!$!$

So I think my thing will be to record these when I can and to upload them on Sunday's (unless...I some how become uber busy... don't seem likely though lol)

I know I should've done this first (well not at the time actually lol it should've crossed my scattered thoughts haha)... well at least it's done now.

If you guys have anymore questions and stuff feel free to send them to me too... I think if I get the energy I'll go ahead and finally make that dancing video I've been wanting to make forever. It won't be great but at least I would have something to link folks to when applying for dancing jobs. It also might be a bit of fun!

My plans for today have been turned upside down but which means I'll have to adjust tomorrow's plans as well but... I'll figure this shit out.

Note to self: I must ABSOLUTELY stop eating sugary things on the left side of my mouth because it makes that side of my face hurt tremendously. Can't wait to get money to fix everything. Dreams of cars, privacy, quiet and...cheesecake, mountains of it dance in my head.

Pics from yesterday's shoot to come!!! It was pretty nice. Some experimenting w/ using flashlight's as lighting. Interesting. From the examples I saw it should turn out pretty cool and moody. Jon ortiz's port can be found here in the meantime. Respectful, Responsible, Chill non-creepy rapey dude! Plus his studio was real easy to find which is always a plus for us bus riding fucks!

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First youtube video

any tips, advice and such would be appreciated... and def feel free to send me more questions or subject matter!!

I dunno if I can watch this many times. Voices always sound really strange when they're recorded lol. Next time I'll put on make-up first... well at least you know what I really look like... oh the horror of unmasked female faces!!! lawls! Also it's hard talking to a cam w/out feeling like you're talking to yourself like a crazy person... maybe that gets better overtime?

Oh other good news!! A little birdy carried my magical lost SD card to me... we embraced and had magical photoshoot babies. OK not really but I do have it back and I can start updated Deviant Art again woot woot!! (as well as re-add the old ass shit back)

I have one shoot planned for next week (tentative, we're going w/ the wind on this one... hope it happens, would be nice to see lightbrite again his port is available here) and counseling session (that I'm sorta looking forward to) and a whole lot of pavement pounding. (momma needs a new pair of ermm adulthood workness?) I also must remember to re-visit ppl and call the shit out of jobs. I've failed to do that pretty much my entire adult life and I think that's a big reason why I spend 6 months at a time on the hustle. I'd rather not do that this time... yay annoying the shit out of managers is FUN!! Just sucks that I hate talking on the phone but I'm learning to get over phone anxiety. Part of being an adult... guess it means suck it up and deal with it yes?

As always on I'm on Model Mayhem, Twitter, oh.... One Model Place (I forgot I had that account until a week ago lol oh mine broke beginnings become my broke currently horray!!), Tumblr, hmmm Fetlife. I haven't really been on there and I'm debating whether I should simply delete the account altogether. While I do have fetishes and there are a few groups I like reading on there that give me hope that the whole world isn't full of scumy scum ass lickers.... the majority remains to be as uninspiring as the majority of the regular population. (oh shit I was suppossed to be working on cynicism shit!) Well at least every once in a blue moon a half way decent female admits to having a psuedo crush that is destined to go no where at all.... and for that I'm thankful..... I think today will be the first time I've checked it in over a week... well we'll see...

Walking this journey w/ you (that's me and for baremaidens... check that shit out, maybe some day they'll upload the video of me throwing a hatchet. I hope so cause I wanna see it myself lol)

Questions for youtube...

so I wanna attempt this whole youtube thing... If you'd like to send me a question to talk about....  my youtube page is here (I know you can send messages there) or send it to little15@email.com (I rarely use this email so might as well make some use of it).

I'm hoping if I can learn to talk to myself like a crazy person perhaps my people skills will improve too? I guess we'll see.


I'm officially off hiatus (shooting wise). Granted I don't have a lot to work w/ (I never really did but now bleh..) I guess it doesn't matter so much if I do nudes though. I'll just start there or w/ things where wardrobe is provided... :-/

(I noticed I hadn't put a pic at the end of my entries in a while so here's one from a year ago... it's no photo shoppy.... sowie lol)

And now to eat breakfast and get ready for a wonderful day!!

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To write or not to type that is the question

I've had plenty of thoughts for unloading but not as much desire to write them down. I've certainly got a long history of either folks getting highly offended over said writings... simply being ridiculed.

Kinda disheartening since I really do enjoy writing ever so much. Perhaps if I was better at it I could get a job making captions and tag lines for pictures lol.

So the real calamity on my mind has nothing to do w/ stalkers, past offences or anything of the like. My better gut feelings says to keep it myself/ write that person directly and hope for absolutely nothing.

When I consider (or am considering) someone a friend (for friendship), even if they piss me the fuck off and I end up talking mad shit (only those who have the ability to provide love and good feelings have the power to critically wound as they tend to know what soft spots to strike/their opinion and feelings actually matter to me) I do eventually get over it and put my all into them again.

I've been for a while not willing to put a terrible amount of energy into anyone/on a personal self bettering journey. Not sure how well I'm doing but I know I have to at least been attempting to deal w/ certain demons before really bringing others in. Recently I feel like I've gotten to a point to half way get back into talking to folks. Now I'm not entirely sure what I feel. A bit hurt but not surprised. (I apologize for being vague in fact I shouldn't stay on this subject any longer)

I also spent like an hour sitting around thinking of what to make a video of. I figured I should do one since I usually don't look that nice. It didn't happen. If you guys had any suggestions for things you'd like to hear me talk about, not talk about, let me know. I've got a wide range of interests (and yet for that hour I couldn't pull from any of those). I think it's cause I worry too much about sounding like a buffoon or that I'll jumble up my words and say ummmmm a lot lol.

I guess that's about it. I will hopefully get that dancing fancy video done soon...(shit keeps coming up to make that not happen, at least I got to have much needed relaxing girl days though) Desert shoot slated for sometime at the end of the month.

(photo by Haley Rose)

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