Awakening this morning. Headaching w/ a slight hangover and a pain in my lips from I guess the holes in them that haven't quite healed yet or them freaking out for nothing being there.
Seems that pain is a normal routine for me. I'd like to say lately but it's nothing new. Could map out every bad event since I got my first facial pericing but I'd have to also map out the good as well.
My stomach is churning up again. I've been sick all week.
Staring at my face w/ only the dim light of the computer screen and I don't really recognize myself. I don't like what I'm seeing... I'm very sad.
Guess on the bright side I can now apply at disney and all those places I've avoided b/c of my facial jewlery and be just as miserable as everyone else.
People say that they're "with you" they "understand' "going through it" but in reality it is oneself who is left to pick up the pieces of their shambled life.
Welcome to adulthood, throw silly dreams away... the reality is I've been supporting myself on next to nothing for years now. I get a bit of help here and there every once in a while from the occasional "good samaritan."
For all the care in the world that folks say they have ultimately I'm on my own... But I guess that's my fault, things wouldn't be so bad if I had just kept my mouth shut as I normally do. Sure my things would continue to periodically disapear...
No matter which way I slice it I'm finding it hard to be optimistic right now