As I get older I realize that the way I've wanted to look when I was a teen and didn't have money to look "different" or try out things I found beautiful... that they're probably not even possible now. I've tried little things to keep it alive... Try not to straighten my hair very often. Usually wearing colorful braids, wigs... anything I find interesting. That has no place in the steady waged working world. It's 2011 and I still can't have red hair or blue or pink... it's too "distracting" Here's my last attempt at salvaging what's left of my look...
I know I look shitty, I'm about to go to bed (at least I can have star trek:the next generation to lift my spirits heh)
They're still noticeble and I'm expecting tomorrow that I'll be told to take these things out completely. Is that so bad? So I won't have wierd things to roll my tounge around when bored or nervous.
I guess I've had them for so long that they feel like a part of me. . . like losing them is like losing a bit of self. Perhaps it's that they remind me of days gone by. My memory isn't the best in the world... but having a little reminder helps...
If and well more like when, (which will probably be tomorrow at my interview) I have to take these out I'll more then likely be leaving them out. I look a bit too much like my mother/sister w/out anything on my face. Why that bothers me is probably another story in and of itself.
When I get new piercings I'll just stick to body one's... anything on the body can be covered and I won't have to deal with the sadness of letting it go...
I'll miss you old friends...
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