How did you find the heart and courage to do this sort of modelling? because I for one find it quite admirable (the heart and courage part) considering a majority of us would never try such a thing.

Well you just go with what you want to do. no hurt in trying something out. What's the worst that can happen? You fail... but at least you tried and probably got some good memories/experiences. Met some interesting folks... We only live so long so might as well live as much as we can

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