A Not so Legendary Unicorn: February 2012

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Do you chew gum?

sure... but mostly I chew my tongue... it's strange but it's pleasurable to me

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Normally when I get home I like to unwind with a nice bottle of water, a few games of blazing star and samurai showdown and maybe a bad movie or two and some star trek. Before I get started on all that though I'd like to spew out the mental frustrations of bus riding in Los Angeles.

Ok maybe it's not that frustrating... I mean for the most part buses sorta come when they should. It ups the commute time by 3 times but it's better than nothing at all.

Sometimes I don't mind overhearing random banter though it can be a bit distracting because lately I've been trying to use this time to catch up on some reading. ( BDSM book actually) I don't like ppl asking me what I'm reading especially when they've interupted my learning process by just trying to hit on me with some lack luster lines. I mean at least pretend to be interested in what I have to say if that's what you're gonna do, if you're even going to bother to ask me what I'm reading... :-/

Then there's the normal loud talking I've learned to semi drown out... though today's talking was more distracting than normal. I kept overhearing some guy get really pissy b/c "black women" weren't responding to him w/ the respect he deserves apparently. Lots of blanket terms. "Oh these hoes out here mad at me 'cause they got 3 babies by 3 different baby daddies" "oh her friend hatin by sayin she's taken cause she got real hair and" Lotsa stupidity.

As I stop myself from interupting with a.... perhaps you don't get respect from black women, not because they ALL WANT LIGHTER PPL but perhaps you don't command respect b/c you don't respect yourself. Perhaps you're projecting that you're more important in their lives. People are rude for any number of reasons, perhaps it was your approach especially when you use the words hoes to describe women, would appear that you don't have enough respect for the women you're demanding respect from right? How do you know she has that many "baby daddies" and even if she does what does that matter to you? Is she any less human than you, less deserving of respect? Her friend is hatin' because she's either telling the truth or trying to save her friend who might be the very kind type who doesn't want to be rude to anyone (I've been there myself actually) and say hey you're an ugly ignorant troll why would I want to date you, or perhaps she might have really had a b/f...

And then my thoughts drifted further into wondering how many times my own feelings have shaped my own views of a situation inaccurately. How often people do this?

I guess I could have simply asked and tried to explain another view but I was too tired and not interested in talking with them though I'm semi amused by how folks do this and why and connecting the dots. Perhaps I really should study some sort of therapy. . .

Alright ramblings done!

Monday, February 27, 2012

My Availability UPDATE (for shooting and web cam)

Schedule (dates not listed are free)

(all times are pacific times)

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February

27th: kink live 6pm - 9pm

28th: kink live 11am - 2pm

29th: busy until after 2 pm

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March

2nd: Kink Live 10am - 1pm, (tentative) meeting time pending ,

UV reactive/ black light shoot @ 5:30 pm (u can register to attend here as a photographer or model ----
http://www.meetup.com/Alt-3rR0r-LA/events/53974352/?a=ed1_l9#idea-comments )

4th: Board Game Night @ the library 5pm

6th: Kink Live 5pm - 8pm

7th: free after 2 pm

9th: kink live 10am - 1pm

12th kink live 2pm - 5pm

13th kink live 1pm - 4pm

14th: free after 2pm

16th: kink live 10am - 1pm

21st: free after 2pm

28th: free after 2pm

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May

7th MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT

19th: Retro Sci-fi girls shoot

20th: Japanese Street Fashion shoot for alterror

On Kinklive.com 2/27/12

I'll be having a fun and educational show at 6pm - 9pm pacific time. We will learn the finer points of school girls putting condoms on phallic objects the right way. Perhaps a bit of candle wax and clothes pins? Or some good ol booby flashing! Remember it's free to chat in free chat... and you can always send a bit of a tip for a spank or 2!

I've been getting asked if it is possible to make an account w/out paying for anything. That some folks haven't been able to. If you personally know how to accomplish this I'd love you forever if you passed this information along to me :D

cya all soon :-D

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Life update

The past few weeks have been enlightening. I think I have a clearer idea of what I want in the short term and some ideas about what I want to persue once the cards are right. My own limits and about putting my well being above others. I don't mean ignoring others needs but I'd been ignoring mine so long and so many things that I was unhappy with just to spare others and ultimately no one ends up being happy.

I know that I will only continue to grow from here on. While I know that rough patches happen here and there I think it will all be ok.

I've been happier and more spirited lately. Thinking about my next plans, saving and happy with some of the helpful and useful gifts I've gotten from a few ppl over the past few months. I'm really happy to finally have what I've wanted for so many years, stability.

While I'm a little unhappy about my spending for the past week. I plan on keeping any additional spending for the next 2 weeks to a min. (Though I know I'll have to schedule some sort of hair appointment *sigh* and I do need to purchase a printer. I was going to try out for some game show for shits and giggles but wasn't able to get to a printer in time. A lot of these job things are really short notice and I almost feel like not applying for extra work b/c of the whole printer issue more than the lack of a car issue so I'm thinking I should add that to a priority list hahaha!)

I got to work with Mr. Paolino yesterday which was a very lovely experience. I'm very happy with the pictures I saw in the cam. I can't wait to get some images back from him.

I also plan on getting some sort of multi-vitamin either next paycheck or the one afterward b/c I know my eating habits are very poor and I want to balance out my health a bit more and have loads of energy for loads of fun (lol loads of fun)

Kink has been awesome to me! I know that the times I'm on there don't correspond with everyone's schedules. I'm debating whether I should try doing a few shows at home during later hours for those who always miss my shows... though chances are that would have to wait for me getting some better lighting. I think my net connection should be fast enough for it (I upped the speed yesterday... Not sure if I'll need to go higher but I think it's the medium level speed... though paying 10 more bucks wouldn't bother me if it'll mean a smoother show.) Perhaps even getting another cam though I think the one I have now is pretty clear.

Also been playing some Samurai Showdown IV and not sucking completely which is awesome. I'm loving that I'm finally getting use out of my fight stick. Even though I don't know anyone who plays, it's a game I've always wanted to master b/c of the way it plays. Timing rather than button smash. Some memory involved... a game that not many ppl even understand how to do combos in. The speed of the game isn't super fast which I enjoy. The fact that the characters actually bleed when hit with weapons are all very appealing to me. I can't understand games that have weapons and no blood what so ever.

Been reading a very awesome book that someone got for me too about BDSM and I've found that just because someone is a bottom in the bedroom doesn't mean they are submissive in life. All sorts of nifty things that I've wondered about. It's making me question where I stand. I'm also feeling proud of serving and having a better appreciation for those who wish to serve...

On my long bus rides I hope to get another few chapters finished (w/out random ppl interrupting my reading though that can't be helped sometimes lol)

I guess that's about it for now... time to get back to be a lazy siren

^---image by Photo Socal

End Transmission

Monday, February 20, 2012

On Kinklive.com 2/20/12

So I'll be on tomorrow from 7pm - 10 pm! Bring a friend! Pool together those kinkest of kinks... hop into chat and share the wittiest of banter or tip for booby flashing tit slappin fun! Ye won't regret ye decision!