naw I'm both... I needed a name to use for kink so yeah... oh life is simple isn't it haha
streamate, flirt4free, cam girl, model, gogo dancer and all around nerdy nerd nerdette. Adventures and random thoughts there in w/ shiney new pictures too!! (formally on kinklive until further notice)
Friday, December 16, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
What's your favorite song right now?
Commercial whore has been stuck in my head for the past day so I'll go with that.... yay x-fusion!!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
It's not you Siren? Aw a shame, I was prepared to give the follower a cookie
:( I want a cookie... don't tease w/ mentions of awesome cookie like things and not deliver... tis the way to mine heart... (and bacon)
Sorry for the brief Hiatus
I've been a bit under the weather for the past week. Still slightly sniffly but functioning sick. Hooray I've come over the hump. The way stuffy feeling this morning though makes me wonder if I'm going down hill again for being outside in the night time air but I can't think that way. I'll have to load up on more OJ and hope for the best. Being sick is something I really can't afford to do for so many reasons.
I realize it's also been a while since I've really written anything. I normally just throw some video up here and a half ass fancy picture and call it a day :) Not that I don't enjoy doing such but the writing that thinks it's inside of me likes to come out sometimes so perhaps a random freestyle (as all my writing tends to be anyway) is in order. Sure there's more words than necessary, grammatical errors... expletive deletives but some people LOVE those right?
So what's been going on lately?
Work wise I've been a good amount of busy and not busy. So much in fact that I can actually take time out to relax and not worry so much about everything under the sun. I've found that a relatively steady cash flow creates such a possitive energy that things that would normally infuriate me have simply rolled off the shoulders and into the gutter. Random not so random but can't recall his name art class dude commented on said positive energy with a few others. As someone who has struggled with bouts of depression and repressed anger to hear such kind words from those who've known me for a while and those who are just getting to know me means a lot. I feel like at the very least I've shown some improvement in this area. I think seeing some of the negatively that others cultivate and thrive in makes me want to steer clear most of the time. I know this is not 100% possible but I can stay away from triggers and such. I've come to realize that not everyone fits neatly together... I don't like to talk or hear about certain people who are simply not worth my time. Not in a I'm better, I'm angry at you.... mostly I focus energy on those people and things who give energy back.
Another thing I've come to realize is while most folks can live by that motto of not needing anyone that this is the biggest fallacy in the planet. Those folks who can tear you down (those closest) are the ones who can rebuild you as well... I guess this is a bit of the power we give away when we choose our extended families. I used to have fears of such things... letting folks in too soon, not saying enough, saying far too much.... I think that I might've found a balance and have learned to deal with most trivial issues on my own w/out having to burden anyone with them. I've learned to not let as much bug me.
People are layered, not just one dimensional... not all pieces fit and that should be ok. Try not to judge as quickly or as harshly as in my younger days though seeing such judgments still are a pet peeve I do realize that all things come into their own on time. Friends don't always have to agree with all that you do... as long as they still care and respect you, don't degrade or debase one for the decisions they've made... but know when to step in if something is of detriment to themselves and others.... (which can also be a very slippery slope)
***** things of note recently ****
Less internet trolling from internet trolls (always a good thing)
Less offence from trolls (block buttons are a lovely feature)
Trip to Vegas (FINALLY)
Socializing/Networking more and stepping out of the hermit comfort zone!! (still not where I wanna be but well on the journey)
Addressing problems directly with people more often (instead of holding things in or messaging them a billion years later!!)
Having less issues with folks, being offended less, laughing more
MORE WORK!
Getting along better w/ family
***********
I'm really happy that things are going as well as they are. For new penpals, friends... all the positive things that are happening. If it doesn't last at least I have these moments right now... of calm... :)
**********
OK back to the normal stuff (schedule as of today)
December
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15th: Kinklive.com (1pm- 4pm)
16th: Birthday party :)
18th: Kinklive.com (4pm - 7pm)
20th: Kinklive.com (4pm- 7pm)
22nd: Kinklive.com (1pm - 4pm)
27th: Kinklive.com (4pm - 7pm)
29th: Kinklive.com (1pm -4pm)
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If you'd like to book me for anything feel free to leave me a comment message or contact me on any of the networks listed at the end of this post :D
and a random video about videogame piracy! Not that I would know ANYTHING about that lol... If you'd like me to talk about anything in particular feel free to send me questions and such as well... I love those!!
I realize it's also been a while since I've really written anything. I normally just throw some video up here and a half ass fancy picture and call it a day :) Not that I don't enjoy doing such but the writing that thinks it's inside of me likes to come out sometimes so perhaps a random freestyle (as all my writing tends to be anyway) is in order. Sure there's more words than necessary, grammatical errors... expletive deletives but some people LOVE those right?
So what's been going on lately?
Work wise I've been a good amount of busy and not busy. So much in fact that I can actually take time out to relax and not worry so much about everything under the sun. I've found that a relatively steady cash flow creates such a possitive energy that things that would normally infuriate me have simply rolled off the shoulders and into the gutter. Random not so random but can't recall his name art class dude commented on said positive energy with a few others. As someone who has struggled with bouts of depression and repressed anger to hear such kind words from those who've known me for a while and those who are just getting to know me means a lot. I feel like at the very least I've shown some improvement in this area. I think seeing some of the negatively that others cultivate and thrive in makes me want to steer clear most of the time. I know this is not 100% possible but I can stay away from triggers and such. I've come to realize that not everyone fits neatly together... I don't like to talk or hear about certain people who are simply not worth my time. Not in a I'm better, I'm angry at you.... mostly I focus energy on those people and things who give energy back.
Another thing I've come to realize is while most folks can live by that motto of not needing anyone that this is the biggest fallacy in the planet. Those folks who can tear you down (those closest) are the ones who can rebuild you as well... I guess this is a bit of the power we give away when we choose our extended families. I used to have fears of such things... letting folks in too soon, not saying enough, saying far too much.... I think that I might've found a balance and have learned to deal with most trivial issues on my own w/out having to burden anyone with them. I've learned to not let as much bug me.
People are layered, not just one dimensional... not all pieces fit and that should be ok. Try not to judge as quickly or as harshly as in my younger days though seeing such judgments still are a pet peeve I do realize that all things come into their own on time. Friends don't always have to agree with all that you do... as long as they still care and respect you, don't degrade or debase one for the decisions they've made... but know when to step in if something is of detriment to themselves and others.... (which can also be a very slippery slope)
***** things of note recently ****
Less internet trolling from internet trolls (always a good thing)
Less offence from trolls (block buttons are a lovely feature)
Trip to Vegas (FINALLY)
Socializing/Networking more and stepping out of the hermit comfort zone!! (still not where I wanna be but well on the journey)
Addressing problems directly with people more often (instead of holding things in or messaging them a billion years later!!)
Having less issues with folks, being offended less, laughing more
MORE WORK!
Getting along better w/ family
***********
I'm really happy that things are going as well as they are. For new penpals, friends... all the positive things that are happening. If it doesn't last at least I have these moments right now... of calm... :)
**********
OK back to the normal stuff (schedule as of today)
December
--------
15th: Kinklive.com (1pm- 4pm)
16th: Birthday party :)
18th: Kinklive.com (4pm - 7pm)
20th: Kinklive.com (4pm- 7pm)
22nd: Kinklive.com (1pm - 4pm)
27th: Kinklive.com (4pm - 7pm)
29th: Kinklive.com (1pm -4pm)
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If you'd like to book me for anything feel free to leave me a comment message or contact me on any of the networks listed at the end of this post :D
and a random video about videogame piracy! Not that I would know ANYTHING about that lol... If you'd like me to talk about anything in particular feel free to send me questions and such as well... I love those!!
END TRANSMISSION
Monday, December 12, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
How much TV do you watch?
not much... I only watch tv if there's a series on that I'm into but that's pretty rare. I'm mainly on netflix, dunno if that even counts for anything
You're so beautiful I touch my self to your pictures all the time.
uh thanks... Hmm why does this make me wonder about the sears cataloug? Hmmmm..... :P but ummm thank you!
Friday, December 2, 2011
What's your best talent?
hmmm I'm not sure.... eating? Puzzle gaming.... being a dorkette!! I dunno this seems like one of those questions best answered by others. What one thing does one do that impacts the world, inspires all that poppy cock...
With phatrfit's question, I have a friend who is in an overseas LDR, me and a few others try to explain why it can be difficult, and try to help him realise it won't last, but would you have any advice I could pass on to him?
I do think it's possible to have an LDR but it's very difficult. It takes a lot of trust but even w/ that everyone needs human contact/interaction. If they're both committed and this is well w/in a reasonable time span (say while someone is going to school, something w/ a definite end date for them moving closer together) I say it may be worth it. Otherwise there's no point. Eventually someone meets someone closer who can provide the closeness all humans need... even the most trusted companions can falter at some point when lonely and weak...
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
HUMP DAY!!!
Which means a new video! And Scheduling update... woot woot!
December
1st: 10am -1pm (pacific time) Kinklive.com
3rd: WP Group Shoot in Riverside (still available for 1 on 1's)
9th: Group Shoot in Lomita
10th: Party of Glutenous Proportions
11th: Harem Girls/Opium Den Shoot in Winnekta (1pm)
If you're interested in booking me feel free to send me a message, comment, note and such on whatever respective website that I've linked to this. I'm normally not free on tues/thurs.... The other dates tend to vary. If you're interested in attending any of these group shoots feel free to message me as well and I can link you to the details :D
Other than that I've got new hair and a new lease on life! Well mostly I'm having really nagging throat pain. Started out scratchy yesterday and now it's scratchy and in pain. Tickling the back of my thought in the most peculiar way.... even still I shall press on and do my duties!
The video I posted last week about atheism keeps getting the same replies of "but it doesn't mean you're a church or that you don't need support b/c you're an atheist." I never said you don't need support... my real point is don't make it such a point that you feel awkward or block out possible friendship b/c you need other "like minded" ppl around. Don't make it seem like someone can't be like minded b/c they follow a religion or be supportive or have similar experiences in other things. I predict I'll be saying this many more times in the future. Perhaps I should block all commenting and do a response video to the original... when I'm not feeling lazy.... I don't have to leave for a while so perhaps I'll get off my ass and do that lmfao. I guess such is the dilemma of video or the internet, you can't just explain what you mean right away and 50 ppl will come at you with the same argument lol
I guess that's about all in Siren land... I'm going to take some meds and try to snap this cold away from my system T_T
this lovely boobie shot is by Arinston Collander
End Transmission
Model Mayhem -- Deviant Art -- Twitter -- Tumblr -- Formspring -- Youtube
December
1st: 10am -1pm (pacific time) Kinklive.com
3rd: WP Group Shoot in Riverside (still available for 1 on 1's)
9th: Group Shoot in Lomita
10th: Party of Glutenous Proportions
11th: Harem Girls/Opium Den Shoot in Winnekta (1pm)
If you're interested in booking me feel free to send me a message, comment, note and such on whatever respective website that I've linked to this. I'm normally not free on tues/thurs.... The other dates tend to vary. If you're interested in attending any of these group shoots feel free to message me as well and I can link you to the details :D
Other than that I've got new hair and a new lease on life! Well mostly I'm having really nagging throat pain. Started out scratchy yesterday and now it's scratchy and in pain. Tickling the back of my thought in the most peculiar way.... even still I shall press on and do my duties!
The video I posted last week about atheism keeps getting the same replies of "but it doesn't mean you're a church or that you don't need support b/c you're an atheist." I never said you don't need support... my real point is don't make it such a point that you feel awkward or block out possible friendship b/c you need other "like minded" ppl around. Don't make it seem like someone can't be like minded b/c they follow a religion or be supportive or have similar experiences in other things. I predict I'll be saying this many more times in the future. Perhaps I should block all commenting and do a response video to the original... when I'm not feeling lazy.... I don't have to leave for a while so perhaps I'll get off my ass and do that lmfao. I guess such is the dilemma of video or the internet, you can't just explain what you mean right away and 50 ppl will come at you with the same argument lol
I guess that's about all in Siren land... I'm going to take some meds and try to snap this cold away from my system T_T
End Transmission
Model Mayhem -- Deviant Art -- Twitter -- Tumblr -- Formspring -- Youtube
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
How do you feel about long distance relationships, would you ever be in one?
I've been in a few, they tend to be difficult to work out/keep interest/the other person tends to meet someone they can see daily and they lose interest in you w/out telling you what happened . . . so no I wouldnt' date anyone I couldn't get to see on a regular basis
Do you like to dance?
YES YES YES YES YES!!! If I could be dancing all the time I would!! I'd love to take some classes and learn more things or learn from friends :D
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