and so weekend plans were cancelled

The heavens burst into flames and but mainly rained money. J/K!! Ended up going to Karaoke with a lady who I'm growing quite fond of, not in a rape you sorta way but in a "you're a cool dame" kinda way. This will probably be the first and last time I'll ever get money thrown my direction at karaoke, dancing fully clothed... I think. Quite a fun/bizarre happen stance I would say. I don't think I've ever been given that much money for not really doing anything but dancing like a drunken fool lol

A welcome change from earlier in the day where I did my good deed of the year by giving a homeless woman sage uh listening skills and some advice. I gave her a card to a shelter, a few bucks and told her of a place to apply to for work. She'd lost her child that day and many other buzz killing things that kinda stole a bit of my sunshine for a moment. I felt a little bad that I wasn't able to help more considering I'm barely doing better than that. I did feel for her to a degree though having been in that situation but not nearly as horrible as losing a child whilst having family estranged from you. I felt a bit more thankful for the situation I'm in. While it's not perfect... I have my health, have forged some relationships which I'm not sure would've happened had my head been clouded with the junk of earlier in the year. (IE the over analyzing of anal brain waves brain waving.....)

I'm also proud of simply being able to communicate a little better with the general population. The telephone no longer intimidates me. So I guess this whole YouTube experiment is some what working? Either way I enjoy it when I have enough quiet/batteries to record something and I'm starting to enjoy the basic editing process. I may try to write out some formal things soon so as to not sound like a total disorganized scatter brain as I sound like in this video lol

(jeez this vid was actually longer than it is now lmfao)

With the exception of money always being in need.... I'm happy with most facets of life.

It's been a while since I really wrote a long entry about life. While I can be modest and say "oh no one really reads this thing" Truth is anyone who gives a shit about you reads the shit you write and even more prevalent than this.... those who hate you pay even more attention. So the day to day details should be saved for those involved right?

I've heard more than my share of wierdos who dislike or want to feign like saying second hand shit. I guess uh what do they say, "haters gonna hate" I'm not terribly concerned with this but when it pertains to those I love and who love me I'd like to keep them out of this as this isn't what they signed up for right?

Life is good...

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loool ur Formspring answer made me LOL :P cuz siren got a big boooootayyyy xD

hahahahaha 10 points for use of the word boooootayyyy

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How long have you had your favorite pair of blue jeans?

since 10th grade which I guess would've been 2001 I'm amazed that I can still fit them though many have ass ripped since then (srsly I never thought that would really happen to me but it has lol)

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Do you watch Anime?

I'll watch a few older series on occassion but frankly I think I've grown out of the whole anime thing. I don't particularly like it's style, the constant re-use of the same animations episode to episode... how a lot of it is similar. The rediculous yelling at random times and certain things that get lost in translation. I'd rather watch something American with a good story/character development. I don't care for flashy animations or flashiness in general... Sadly American animation hasn't been the best in recent years either... there are a few gems here and there but a void is there. Luckily though there's always comic books which never fail to please :D

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Traveling! October 7th - 9th

I'll be in Las Vegas!! So if you're a photographer who would like to work with me or a promoter wanting a GOGO dancer I'll be there. If not at least I can catch up on some much needed sleep. Waking up at 5am every morning when there's no net at your house and nothing to do is kinda irritating. I'll have tons of links at the end of this post. Feel free to contact me at those to set up a shoot!

Other than that... life is calm in Siren world... cold but calm.

Had a wonderful shoot this weekend with Vintage Vista who quite possibly might be the nicest photographer whose ever graced my presence. Organized... always looking out for the model. Just a pleasure to work with.  I can't wait to get the pics back!! (oh yes one of the few photogs that doesn't bitch about sending pictures... I don't have to hound you to get things back even though technically you don't really have to send anything.) He Even provides high quality prints!! You just can't get any better than that... :)

The photo above was shot by MXD Studios (another cool guy to work with)

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in response to my "hermit" question... I second that. I know it's not a question and it can't get an answer, but I just thought I'd let you know you're not the only 'introvert' like you described.

cool to know... though if we were all introverts the world would be a quiet scary but probably less fight filled place lol

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What song makes you smile?

redneck pussy house by caustic makes me smile and laugh pretty hard

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a new video

yay 2 vids in one week... how unheard of j/k


Shooting schedule is still the same... 2 saturdays booked in a row... but the rest of the month is game. Lots of day job, extra gig applying this week. So far I haven't really heard back from anyone T_T Then again I've been a bit stranded but next week will be better!! (feel free to contact me on any of the sites bellow/comment, send a message and what not for shoot inquiries)

Really looking forward to bunker tomorrow as well!!

I'll have to make this short (I've yet to have lunch) But I'd like to say thanks for the new follows, favs and all the love from Deviant Art!! and a super duper thank you to whomever bought a few prints a few days ago :hugs:

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why are females with your personality and hobbies such a rare occurance in todays society?

I'm not sure that they're that rare... I know plenty of female gamers, chicks who like sci fi and guns and ridiculous cheesy violent crap... I think folks just have to get over the whole typical gender roles thing. Then again I don't know where the "normal" girls hang out at but I tend to propagate places filled with folks with like minded interests... I guess that's where it starts... maybe ya just gotta go to the right places. However a girl into classic gaming... I've yet to meet one who likes neo geo... 16 bit crap... classic games or a true arcade trip (and I don't mean just dancing games... I mean everything from racing to light gun to classic platformer shooter action etc. ) kinda girl so far, also haven't met a guy into that either... meh...

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Do you like children? Would you like to have any? Or do you think they'd only get in the way of your life prospects?

sure I like children... sometimes I wonder if I'm awkward around them (as I feel strange around most new people) but one thing I do enjoy about them is that they're very honest so if they don't like me they'll let it be known... they have no filter like adults do. I don't want to have any of my own, aside from financial reasons emotionally I'm not sure I could handle dealing with my own child... the things that could go wrong would probably set me up for a nervous break down... and if someone hurt my child... especially in terms of sexual abuse I'd have to cut off their genitals... a lot of sicko's out there... I dunno how I would deal with that....

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Would you rather vacation in a city or on a beach?

City plz, the beach isn't always a pleasant place to go, I catch cold very easily so I wouldn't be comfy at a beach most of the year

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Since I haven't posted a video in a couple of weeks

I think :(

here's one... that is utterly pointless but still hahaha. I'm attempting to edit all my videos from now on and to attempt to not look like utter crap in all of them :D If you have any topics you'd like me to discuss feel free to message me them or comment.

Anywho....

No word back from when the whole Gogo team "meeting" will be. Since I have day job work Friday (very early) I won't be going out Thursday like I'd hope for. I guess it's a good thing since I don't get paid from last weeks gig until Friday so... I guess it's ok if I wait an entire day. I'm predicting that I'll be incredibly exhausted though... I have a shoot the next day with Vintage Vista but it's pretty late in the afternoon/evening so I should be all rested up by then :D

I guess that's about all that's going on in Siren land...  aside from going to the movies tonight  and ever checking on random job opportunities lest I not die a starving uh... artist/model/boobshaker :D

Hopefully I'll see you at Bunker Friday!!!

Feel free to message me on  some of the sites at the end or comment if you'd like to book me for a shoot or dancing or to stand by idle and eat all of your pizza... I'm very good at that.

**shoots to happen so far.....

October 1st Vintage Vista

October 8th Sal W Hanna (provided I can find my damn costume but I think I should be able to by then, if you'd want to donate one out of the kindness of ur wallet or just curious as to what kinda crap I like feel free to check out the wishlist on the sidebar)

Papa vic Photography took this spiffy pic above... in the spirit of.... good ol' pumkin day I've shared it with thee hither....

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What fall TV show are you most excited about?

dexter!!!!!!!!!!! :D

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Should a fantasy remain a fantasy? Or should we go ahead and experience it for real? Do you live out your own fantasies?

I think if you can do it w/in reason w/out hurting anyone (unless of course they like that sorta thing) then sure! Some fantasies though (IE some folks haven't had threesomes... can be damaging in ways one doesn't expect...if one is in a serious relationship. Jealousy on either or both sides can erupt etc.) Yeah I can say I've fulfilled a few fantasies in my day :D

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If you could attend any concert, what would it be?

uh syn:server who happens to be playing tonight but alas I must work for food lol

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